Wednesday, May 19, 2010
People who know me, know that I am OBSESSED with the gym...they know that I love the treadmill, and I will do boot camp classes everyday if I had the money (I can't wait to be rich, first thing I pay for is a year-long gym membership...packed with different classes to take..I canNOT wait!!)
Anyway, I digress. I went to dinner with a couple of friends, and they were telling me how good I looked, that I had put on weight, and I looked "healthy". Anyone who is conscious about the way they look know that "healthy" is just a nice way of saying "fat". I got curves now, I'm 5'10, and I don't look fat. In fact, I am not fat. Fair enough, when they saw me a couple of months back at a restaurant, my cheekbones were protruding like I hadn't eaten in days (I had just eaten before going to the restaurant! Yes, I love food..and what?!)
After they said that (we were at Nando's, I got two pieces of chicken, fried rice AND mashed potatoes), I started to think about my goals health-wise. What did I want to look like? How much do I want to lose? etc. blah blah. yaddi yaddi yadda.
Fair enough, the surgery really set me back about 15 pounds. I couldn't work out for a MONTH, and all I did in that month was eat like I was going to prison for life and I was never going to see good food again (random comparison, but hey, you get the point). Now that I am working out, I am really trying to get back into the swing of things. I used to go to boot camp sessions, I think I am going to start that again, because I do not like the way I look. I want to lose 10 pounds (AND KEEP IT OFF), I want those nice abs I had before. I want my thighs to shrink a couple inches. The body I have now is the body I want after I have kids. I have no children, I should not be looking like this. Call me crazy, but I am not. I am not anorexic. I KNOW I am not bulimic, don't believe in that crap. Those girls are crazy. I still love to eat, but I also love to work out. I just need to work out more. But I can't push myself just yet. Hopefully in the next month or so, I have stepped my gym game up and I am back to how I used to look.
Let's look at Naomi Campbell. Imagine if she put on about 30 pounds. She wouldn't look nice. And if you look at Crystal Renn (who used to be skinny, but is now a plus-size model), she didn't look nice when she was skinny, but she is STUNNING and "healthy" now. So it depends on the person, and what they are comfortable in. I know I will be comfortable in a 155-160 pound body.
See that picture of Naomi Campbell? Add about 12 pounds, and that's what I want. I will get there. Watch me.
Okay, going back to this paper. Hope you guys are well. How I miss blogging. Will get back to it in 3 weeks. Hopefully, I am inspired to blog.